有时候，莫名的心情不好~

-有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。­

-有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。­

-有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。­

-有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。­

-有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。­

-有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。­

-有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。­

-有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。­

-有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。­

-有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。­

-有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。­

-有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。­

-有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。­

-真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。­

-有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。­

-有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。­

-有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。­

-有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。­

-有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。­

-有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。­

-有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。可当那个可以疼你的人出现 的时候，你却偏执地退隐。­

-有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。­

-有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。­

-有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。­

-有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。­

-有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。­

其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。。。 ­

我到底怎么了？？？

不过我丢了自己，几时会捡回来呢？

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What happened to myself??

doing nothing....

but my mind keep thinking something make me feel worried..disturbed...

don't know what am i thinking!!!

how i can pacified myself???

Halloween

Just come back from Feeling cafe...

Yamcha with Claire Ayfen Andrew Vincent Chye and his cousin..

Before that, me and claire go Cheras to find her friend.

Go there and turn back to Setapak aldy 1 n half hours..><

Around 9pm++ only we reached cafe after fetch ayfen..

Then only i realize tomorrow is Halloween..

The staff give all of us a mask..hehe...

Tonight quite happy la..at least we all laugh laugh laugh..

actually is just me n ayfen do that. haha~

Chye's cousin stun there cause we keep laugh..

Chye is trying ask him to ignore us. his face damn funny~

Don't know what's going on....haha

share some pic here la~

Four of us..

Ayfen & Nicole

Nicole Ayfen Claire ^^

4 ppl again..

3 handsome with us =)

Listen to me

Make you misunderstand, maybe my tone is not good, sorry.
I know you are a people who like to think many things, I'm afraid you will misunderstand, so when some of the things you did not ask, do not imagine anythings from your mind.
Some things have happened, and I know it was my fault, the relationship was a bit to get worse. However, because of some things, feelings and thoughts change.

If you want to know anything, can come to me, at least I will not distort the facts.

Do not think too much, our friendship still, not much changed.

New shoes

Finally i bought a new shoes to myself..NIKE^^
Thanks to my lovely brother sponsor money..muackz..haha..
He win lottery, nvm la..haha...

Bought it from N concept store,RM199.
Actually want buy the new balance but mum said not nice then she help me to choose..
haha..That shoes quite nice...grey color =)

weeeewangwang~wakakkaka~
=)

1st blood donation in my life

Today 4pm class change to 8am class. Two genius absent again.

Mr Bryan and Mr Peng...clever...

Skip Skip Skip......><

After 10am class....blood donation..

Thank you very much to Mr. feroz bring me go or 'force' me go for donating blood today.

Is the FIRST time in my life.

Damn scare while doing the simple blood testing..

I just keep told feroz i don't want play dy, is not play la, is like i very scare.

Aiyooooo.....before lying down on the chair, I felt my hand damn cold,

He just say don't scare, relax....><

He not the 1st time to donate sure can relax...

He donate blood from left hand then i from right hand.sit together~

At least i'm not alone..haha...then his friend's also come for donation..haha

He damn late...^^ is melvin...n louis...i think so..

After donation..is felt ok, is just very tired, feel like no energy...'bo lat'

and only both of us go donate..><>

Then i go meet with naythan go badminton, Feroz don't know where he go..i think go back sleep.

Me and Naythan, i think we waitt for more than half and hour only they reach...

their house damn 'far'...... every times also won't be punctual.

After badminton 2.15++, then four of us sit outside the place CHAT...

Peng sit inside the car, is waiting us,.but then he go back alone..didn't join us makan.

what we talk there is just bout genting la...got stories to know...hehe..funny...

Until 3pm gua then only we go MU makan...

Don't know what's the name for the restaurant, is malay restaurant..

4++ only we siam...TIRED...feel blur....@@

Is Truth --->丢了的自己，要记得捡回来

有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，

只想一个人静静的发呆;

有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，

曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非;

有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，

觉得自己很累很累;

真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，

却依然觉得孤单。

每次都有这些时候会在我身上发生。@@

=) & T.T & ~.~

=)

Today 23/10..is my dear sis Sherry Chong 20th Birthday..

Happy Birthday..All the best to u...stay happy n pretty..haha

Got celebrate with her last week Wednesday cz is her chinese 21th birthday..hehe

Cute girl....

T.T

Just now 5pm++,my elder brother called from Moscow..talk with us half an hour++..When my turn talk to him...talk bout my study..my tears dropped...this action was scare my mum n my brother..my mum thought he scolding me...He just concern bout my study and not scolding me..He ask me give more effort on my study,must get degree, cause this is the what i choose and what i promise to him...and ask me don't too stress, must relax myself too..

He said I giving stress to myself...ya ar...

~.~

After genting trip until now,I haven't update any blog bout that trip..

The stories too long, don't know how to write...><''

write as much as i can la..

Erm...15/10 Friday....After replacement class for Tax tutorial class at 11.30, even only 5 of us out of 9 attend the class.Then we go had our lunch and met at Feroz's house at 2pm++.

Two proton wira...with auto gear got 6 ppl ( Naythan Nicole Ayfen Andrew Peng & Edmund)all thin...with manual gear got 5 ppl (Chye Feroz Yk Carmen & Bryan) half fat half thin...haha

I 4gt what time we reach the apartment, what i rmb is after settled down all the things, we start our drinking session.2 bottles Black label, 4 bottle Coke and 24 cans of Tiger beer...

Listen music, play card, talk c*, bla bla bla....don't know what we did..hahha

The 1st person who drunk is Peng...cause he drank black label and tiger..sure mabuk lo...cause he go kacau feroz's beer, he go pour some black label to his tiger beer..sure kena lo..and his personal problems make him think so much after drunk..keep jump here n there..keep scold naythan, don't know what he talk there..finally he go talk to the toilet bout..i think got 2hrs~hahaha....he keep vomit...feel dizzy....

Another person is Yk...his story i really don't know how to write it out....Skip...

story got included ambulance bomba..m-m...cpr....bla bla bla...........

because this story happened, he must treat his gf,carmen very well...

maybe is a good thing to them...

the 1st day we slept at 2 or 3am....others thgs forget dy...

Next day morning..all laugh laugh laugh....go watch the video~remember what happened.

Then we go genting around....4gt dy..hehe...

Chye and Naythan go Casino,actually Andrew want go together too,but kena check~

then we all go outdoor play....hahha....the couple play themselves..

all stories can skip also....but we help Feroz go play some games there..he should know what's that...hahaha....feel GOOD....

11.30pm only we reach the apartment..damn tired..all take turn go bath...another activities started...haha....we play jing gu bang continue play cards then dance~haha...

off all the light, on the music quite loud..even the couple is sleeping...we just enjoy....hahaha~we play play play laugh laugh laugh.....love my gang...all sot plug....so cute....hehe..

I think tired gua...don't know what time we all sit at the balcony..talk talk talk...

don't know what we talk there....but got one topic is bout the 1st impression and the different now for everyone...

Mostly they say Naythan very LC..hahhaha....don't know...not my impression..

but is funny when we heard this....wakakakka....all laugh~

Feroz and Naythan is new members for our gang...honestly quite like them, cause anything can find them, talk to them and they will make me laugh make me very happy, even some times what they said i feel want to hit them, but i do so la..hahaha..Sorry lo...i know is pain la...hahhahah..

i gt this feeling, may be come for advanced diploma,but all my girl friends not with me..ayfen annie huisze...even still happy with bryan they all la... don't know how to say~like 3 ppl leave us but lucky got another 2 come in...hehe....abit balance...haha

This night we all sleep at6 am..siao....wake up at 10.30 gua....3 of us sleep on the floor...1 sleep on the sofa...others sleep inside bedroom...><''

Okay la....feel happy then worth lo...hahha

don't know what to say..I just know i enjoyed this trip... haha

*Waiting for another trip*

14/10 Thursday

These few days very busy ar....no time to update my blog...><

Thursday morning got date with Diana at 10.30am until 11.30++ .

After that go college..got lecture at 12pm or 1pm,4gt already..but also skip.

cause later PM tutorial got question to present and we haven't done.

Then go lunch with Naythan at Man Chuan even i date others also.

maybe their house very far or came from singapore...take at least half an hour to reached.

All because of SOON CHYE!!

Finish lunch,some of them go service car, we go Bryan's house discuss PM,

beginning only me naythan n bryan...but we don't know how to do, so call Feroz to come and settle it.haha..Final conclusion we no need to do and we SKIP class....

because next day we got 3D2N genting trip.No mood to study..hahaha...

So we call peng say skip class together then go jusco buy something

and Feroz want makan. On the way,I received msg from YK said he n carmen will skip class. Few more minutes,Andrew they all also skip,cause need time for service car.GOOD.....

9 of us skip class,means left 2/3 ppl in the class....haha~

SKIP lo...1st time for PM...nvm...haha~

i think nothing happened after this...forget la...stop here...next blog....

Moody =(

DAMN NO MOOD

3am now..but can't sleep.

actually i very tired..really very tired..

but just feel down..many things keep appear in my mind..

is annoying me...don't know how to express out..

i hate this feeling...i dun like~

but i can't do anything for this...

10-10-10

10.10.10 actually nothing special to me..just a normal sunday..is damn boring sunday.

From morning until late evening also BORING..

what to do?? better date people go out..

since Ms.Ayfen keep kacau me and she kena her bf ffk...

then we dinner together.

for sure will dinner with Chye Chingwei Peng Edmund Vincent...

Bryan at genting then Yk haven't back yet..

May be because of something happened,he don't want come back yet.

That story don't want tell here,very long.

We go dinner at Air Panas there...I don't know how to go there,so follow edmund's car.

Ching wei date us 7.30pm,then i can't be punctual,cause I haven't take bath.

so postpone to 7.45 or 8pm...

Then 8pm i reached Ayfen house,then i called.

'where you guys? I reached ayfen hse'

Chingwei said coming,waiting Chye.

FINE...me and ayfen wait for 45 minutes in my car!!!!!

because of stupid soon chye.....he damn slow...even they also go fetch peng come together.

But still is chye problem.who ask him to come out late!!!!

reach the place aldy 9.15++ , i think so....what i knew is i very hungry....

Finish dinner almost 10pm++, but they all ready to cc..swt..so rich...everyday also ready.

But chye pk jo la..he follow my car,i sent him back...he no $$ leh...

haha..he have to save money then go genting with us this fri~yeah

i'm waiting FRIDAY to come..

i damn no mood !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i damn no mood !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i damn no mood !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i damn no mood !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i damn no mood !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY??

If you still continue with your 'own style' attitude, the way you speak, your manner and your action...trust me, you are just making people to hate you more and more...and you don't know you are annoying people,do you know is very irritating..but then you don't know what's the problems on your behave?? you really don't know and really can't feel it?? you are making people not happy...WHY??WHY??WHY??

WE all felt very tired bout this..If we can ignore, we try to do but then we can't make it..can't force ourself to do so.I hope there are nothing happened before..then we all will be more HAPPY....

SKIP lecture,SKIP class

Whole day not going for lecture and class.

12-1.30 PM lecture then 2-3.30 Tax tutorial

Last week didn't go for PM on Fri, this week also not going..><

Tax tutorial class is the 1st class!!! I'm absent for the 1st class..><

haizzz....got reason.....

because~

I need to go Subang to look for a chinese traditional healer...

with my dear cousin Tammy and her younger sister...

Tammy said the healer quite good for giving treatment for the

skeleton problems, tendon problems or something like bones problems.

They got some backbones problem and for me is my waist and my leg got such problems so better go..at least I know what's the problem after his treatment.

After treatment,my leg feel better..For my waist problem, he say he can't do anything, the problem can't recover, otherwise have to go for operation.He's not the 1st person to tell me have to do the operation...haiz.....thinking.....success rate just 50-50 % only leh....><

but then few more week will follow Tammy go again,cause my backbones haven't check yet,too many people waiting outside..so next time only check lo.

but honestly~ DAMN PAIN ~ when he checking my leg and adjusting...walao...

tammy and i just bear the pain...

but my younger cousin don't know cry how many times..her skeleton many problems~

from the hands, backbones until the legs also KENA..sure she cry~

really pain wuhhhhh.......

Sem 1 Results

'Congratulation' to myself, this sem results damn 'Good'....

1st times my cgpa damn low, 1.1++ only...

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Member's results:

Carmen fail 1 paper (Dm)

Bryan ChingWei Peng and Yk fail 2 papers(Dm,Afa)

Feroz and I fail 3(except Eng Mis)

then Edmund fail 4....(except Eng)

1 more fella Mr.Naythan: I don't know his results.

Then Chye also fail 3 papers (Tax Ma FA) in his diploma..

But lucky Ayfen she passed that 2 papers,means she can graduate in diploma.

we can go her convocation next year =)

haiz....**** la..........damn moody !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sure will being scold by my brother...T.T

1st week 1st day

New sem 1st class : 4pm - 5.30pm,only 1 n half hour,should be happy right??

But damn heavy rain when on the way to class,so wet...luckily I wears slipper~

but still not comfortable la..so wet..><

After class go carrefour KFC...with bryan peng andrew naythan feroz edmund and yk.

For lunch and also for discuss the genting trip~^^

When asking how many people go for the trip,the way from someone asking someone,

sound a bit weird and we know got some meaning inside..haha..

Anyway now confirmed got 11 person or 12, Carmen not going because she got family trip to PD on that few days too. Invite more ppl?? don't know yet..hehe~

Tuesday......Im waiting my dear sherry comes back then can hang out with her and Nie...

haha...Jwei don't jealous ya..WE waiting u too..meet in December...hehe^^

New semester gonna start =)

Tomorrow start 2nd semester..Very happy cause I damn boring for my sem break...nothing to do except for few days got friend's wedding dinner and other events..That's all...SIEZZ...

At least now start study can meet my gang, have fun together, do everything together..hehe..

This is what I want..Life will be more happy...

Hope i can more concentrate my study better than previous semester..haha..i think i can..don't know...~??????~ If nothing influence me la..

Enjoy my life ^^

20th Sept

Suddenly 1 fella asked me why I din update my blog but I'm free to online and play game there.

okie lo..I update now..

The most recent happened in my life : drinking session on 20th Mon

Venue : my house

Time : 6pm ( but most of them came after 7.30) only Bryan Peng Naythan Feroz were punctual as I'm the 1 who called them came earlier...hahaha

Members: boys ~ Bryan Peng Andrew Naythan Feroz Chye Edmund Nic

girls ~ Ayfen Cheng Annie ( miss Huisze very busy can't join us)

2 more not attended this party...reason??? whatever la...

Foods and drink

Pizza Snack Cake(but all on feroz face,haha even the cake is for him n chye)

because of who?? honestly is either naythan chye peng bryan push feroz head or pull the cake up to his face...hahahaha...

Coke 7-up Soda and the most imprtant is VODKA 40% alcohol leh...

actually is birthday party,can enjoy ourselves and talk nicely there but suddenly change to drinking session..the First ppl who drunk is CHYE, his face damn RED..we haven't finish drink he want have a bed to sleep..my room la...sleep sleep sleep..

Second is BRYAN or ANDREW..bryan should scold naythan,he keep drink because of naythan..haha Bryan can't walk straight kena video by cheng and post it in facebook..hahha

Andrew vomit leh...3 times.my house, when go ec home lastly reach home..he looks damn funny after he get drunk...haha..because of who?? NAYTHAN lo..he can drink but others cannot drink leh..haha..but we all enjoy la..i think la...for me,sure enjoy...happy mah..

9.30pm all SIAM....lucky peng and edmund drink less can drive the car..hahha..feroz and naythan?? don't worry, they wont get drunk unless they no need to drive gua..hahha

Very happy because of this party...haha...all drunk...i can't sleep after they all back home,don't know why..around 1am only can sleep...no vomit no headache for the next day..so good..haha

parents din scold but brother laugh at me why i drunk..haha...

HAPPY =)

10th August

Morning morning 9am have to reach coll to done the audit assignment.

But I'm the 1st person to reach there,2nd is Naythan followed by Bryan then the LAST Feroz.

Actually just still got abit more to do which is done by Mr.Naythan then just came back form S'pore. So syok go S'pore but come back need to do the audit...hahha....Even he had told us what to do before he go for S'pore.hahhahahhah..Nvm la..

NOW NO MORE ASSIGNMENT!!!!!!!!!! yes~~~~~~~~~~~

After lunch then skip audit lecture as what we always do, and go for BADMINTON at Pro 1 2.15- 4.15pm...weeeeeeee^^

3.30++ Chye join us to play.haha~ Members : me 3 dears naythan edmund n yk

where is Mr.Feroz~go back or don't know go where lu...1 more Ms.Carmen..erm..i duno..stay at yk hse....either sleep online or help his dear do the notes.....
Today play badminton more fun cz im not playing with slipper..hahha^^

must exercise le..very fat jo~haiz :(

After game go eat at MU food court there...the foods not bad ar...cheap too~this is what I WANT.hahaha...still got drama to see....fung sun bong..like it^^

tired aldy la...stop here. SLEEP.....

1 month

hmmm....almost 1 month didn't update my blog here...Really too busy on my studies la...

Many things to do..assignment test whatever things comes together...walao..even got free time i wish to SLEEP....haha

Now is week 12, tomorrow will start week 13th..but we still have 1 more assignment haven't submit.. After tuesday we are FREEEEEEEEEEEE..haha~

BUT...week 14th we have to sit for make good test.AFA arrr.....haiyo..how la...can't fail the coursework ar..if not can't go for final...not only this subject..others subject we haven't know the actual marks ><

Final also coming soon...

28th

30th

2nd

6th

8th

looks good rite the time table..but all the subject can kill me!!!!!!!!!!

haiz....T.T

9 July

hey hey~Friday again~

erm..morning 9am got MIS class but today no need present the tutorial answer,all DONE..haha~but except Mr.Bryan la~

11am finish class we all go makan after submit the audit assignment: Jonny........~?(don't know what the name) haha

1.30pm got lecture~but today is for our MIS test...didn't study at all~

what to do~COPY la...

Thx Naythan told me some answer..hahaha~and they all also copy..with high level of technique..Good....hehehe^^

3.30pm~FINISH go badminton at Pro one even we all not pro..I'm the 1st reach there around 4pm there and wait them until 4.45pm....hahha...but 5.30 said bye bye to them..they all played lo but somethings happened during the badminton...><

Dinner:Manjalara

tonight cheng date all of us have dinner together at kepong. but Hui sze and Suk kwan can't come

then only

Chye

Andrew

Bryan

Peng

Me

Cheng

Ayfen

Annie

where is the YK n Carmen...???? long stories there~haizzzz~

Because of something happened, they reach kepong around 9.30++

reach the restaurant aldy 10pm,finish the dinner 11++

hahah~but we enjoy the dinner....LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH

miss that moments~but Ms.Chai not around...haiz~

2nd round we go yam cha....:MO MO......(don't know what name again) hahha

chat there play there laugh there..happy^^

until......12am++....want change venue again~and Mr.Peng treat us oh.....hahhahahah^^

3rd round : Cheng's house

Again....Chat Play Laugh...hahah~actually her family slept but we make noise there~><

1.30am...Phone call from mum..where are you..1.30am still don't want back~

okay lo~then I back home lo~others stay there play again~hahahahhahhahhahah

didn't take photo can't post here~hehe

Today is shy shy Naythan's birthday

Happy Birthday, Bro~ahhahha